This Thursday I am posting my 100th Thankful Thursday post. To celebrate, I'm having a contest. Be sure to stop by.
Let me tell you the story of how my Thursday Thanks Tank posts started.
On Oct 19, 2005, my husband deployed to Iraq for a year. I was afraid. I was scared he would be hurt or killed.
Here's an excerpt from a journal entry that I wrote the morning that he left.
"It seems impossible to feel as deeply as I do. Watching Seth deploy was the hardest thing I have done. It was heart crushing. My soul is weeping tonight...
I feel so sad and empty. There is no way to explain it."
Here's an excerpt from a journal entry I wrote six days after he left on Oct 25, 2005.
"I am concerned about Jonathan. He is really worrying about Seth. Tonight he was talking about how he didn't want Daddy to get hurt. And he described how he could duck bullets. That was almost too much for me. We have been praying together for Daddy. Tonight David put his arms around me and gave me a hug. hen, he just sort of hung on. He said, "I miss Dada." I don't know what he understands but he misses Daddy. Earlier he said, "Momma ets go home." I told him we were home. (He has never said that before when we were at our house before.) Then, he said, "Dada a wreck" (which is Daddy Iraq). I think he was trying to say he wants Daddy home. It is so hard. It is just hard."
My fear overwhelmed me at times.
I decided to claim 2 Timothy 1:7 as my verse for the year.
For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind."
Four months into my husband's deployment, I started my blog. I explained the reason for my blog here: The Weight of Constant Activity
About the same time, I began reading Christian blogs.
Fast forward a bit. It was 2007 and through a series of clicks, I ended up on a blog called: Without Fear
My husband was home but I was still struggling with fear. When you dwell in fear for so long, it is hard to get rid of it.
The words on that blog encouraged my heart. They spoke to the dark places that had formed during my husband's deployment.
The blog claimed Isaiah 41:10"
"Fear not, for I am with you;
Be not dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you,
Yes, I will help you,
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand."
Pam, the author of Without Fear (this is her current blog site) had a weekly exercise called Thursday Thanks Tanks. I read her thankful thoughts and they touched me.
I realized focusing on being thankful kept me from worrying about things I could not control- namely, the future.
So, on June, 14, 2007, I wrote Thursday Thanks Tank #1.
Little did I know, my weekly Thanks Tank would help me become more thankful everyday. I had no idea how much it would impact my life.
Although I have been blogging almost daily lately, my blogging used to be more sporadic. My Thankful Thursdays have been the one thing I cannot stand to miss. I write them for me. I spend the day being thankful. I often make a large list of small things and then post a handful of items. I always spend time thanking God for what he has given me.
It is accurate to say that Thursday Thanks Tanks have changed me.
Pam and I are now more than just blog friends. We are facebook friends and we exchange Christmas cards, too. I am not sure I have had a chance to explain to her (until now) just how thankful I am for her and her Thursday Thanks Tanks. With the words of her blog, she began something that made a difference.
That's how my Thursday Thanks Tanks started.
I am better off because I take time to be thankful.