I spent much of last week looking forward to the weekend because I was going to watch the football game and then go out on a date with my husband. We don't get out all that often without the kids. I thought we were going to have a wonderful time. As the week wore on, my daughter seemed to be getting sick. By the time Friday arrived, I knew that I couldn't leave her with a babysitter. She had a miserable cold. She felt crummy. I cancelled our babysiter on Friday night and then proceeded to pout. I was in a bad mood. I told my husband that I didn't care what we had for dinner but I didn't want to cook. My husband ordered pizza. I didn't do much of anything that night.
The next morning I woke up with a different attitude. I had soccer games to go to and a football team to cheer on. I was determined to make the best of everything- even if my sons' teams lost their games (they did), even if my daughter felt bad (she did), and even if I had to console my husband when his football team lost (I did). I was determined to enjoy myself.
I enjoyed the weekend and my family.
I came away from the weekend thinking about all of the little moments of love. When I don't have the right attitude or I fail to slow down, I miss moments with those I love. I'm often too busy thinking about the next thing to enjoy the current moment. I missed out on some laughter with my kids Friday night because my irritability left me wanting to be alone.
I'd still like to go out on a date soon. I will before too long. My missed date doesn't matter that much. Weeks from now, I won't recall how I missed going on a date.
I will remember my 8 year old holding my hand at the pumpkin patch.
I might remember the double high fives I got from my 6 year old when he scored a goal.
I will smile at the picture of me tickling my kids.
I will reminisce about snuggling up with my daughter to watch her first princess movie.
The moments that matter fill my heart with joy. I never want to be too full of myself or too busy to enjoy the little moments.
I want to make time for moments that matter. I need to plan some of these moments. I also just need to pay attention so I don't miss them.