Tuesday, October 06, 2009

Dirty Dishes, One Big Mess, and a Humble Heart

I have two goals today. Today I am going to get my kitchen clean and provide my kids dinner. I have been feeling icky for days and my place is a wreck.

There is a pile of laundry waiting to be folded on the couch. I had to put it there because there was a pile of washed laundry waiting in the washer to be dried.

There are little pieces of paper on the kitchen floor from yesterday (I think it was yesterday) when my 4 year old was practicing cutting (he needs those cutting skills).

The toys are all over the living room. That's a given on most days but today it seems worse.

The kitchen is the worst it has ever been. The waffle iron is still sitting on the counter to be cleaned from Saturday night. The griddle from last night's grilled cheese sandwiches just got washed. Thankfully for the counter space, we ordered pizza on Saturday night. We have managed to run the dishwasher each day but, beyond that, the leftover dishes have not been done. It is bad. There are also Sierra Mist cans sitting out. I don't know why but when I feel bad, I want Sierra Mist or Sprite to drink. So, the empty cans clutter the counter waiting to be recycled.

My husband and I have been feeling bad since Saturday. He stayed home from work most of the day yesterday. Today he has to work and he won't be home until after the kids are in bed. Today, it's all me and I don't feel up to it.

I have had 5,467 interruptions since I started writing this post.

I almost can't remember why I started this post. Oh, right- I remember...

I feel real. This is a bit of real life -dirtiness, struggling to keep up, constant interruptions, and distractions. It's humbling to be in this place. It's real.

I sat down with my cup of coffee, my bagel, my good book, a pencil and some paper. I read a bit. I had to keep my daughter from drawing on my devotional book. I had to keep her from tearing the fine paper pages of my Bible. After a bit, I gave up, put the binder, book and pencil on my counter.

I am not sure what I got from the verses I read today.

It doesn't matter. I am hanging on. I am holding on to all that's left to hold on to.

I don't feel good and I despise the state of my house.

I am pressing on.

I am bringing my dishes to the sink, washing and scrubbing, and setting them out to dry.

I am bringing my dirt, unashamed, to God.


He & Me + 3 said...

I hope that you all feel better soon. It is so hard to be Mommy and be sick. Praying you have a blessed day inspite of it all.

everydayMOM said...

Awwww. Thanks for sharing your dirt! I hope you feel better soon!

Beth E. said...

Bless your heart! I'm so sorry you (and your hubby) are feeling bad. I'm praying for you.

Five Moms & A Blog said...

And He will meet you where you're at! He loves you!

I hope you all start feeling better soon. It's so miserable when you're sick.

I don't know if you read the post I did awhile ago, but I took pictures of my laundry waiting to be folded, and of the messy sink, the recyling on the counter, and the messy countertop.

My hubby thought it was funny that I was taking pictures of my messy house and blogging about it. He asked "Is that all you guys do? Take pictures of your messy house and print it?"

But you know, it's just so nice to see others are human too. Sometimes you feel like you are constantly stuggling to keep it up, you know?

No, my home isn't always neat and clean, but I keep trying, lol!

Five Moms & A Blog said...

ooops, that was me!

~ Nan

Alicia, The Snowflake said...

I'm so sorry! I hope you feel better soon! And I hope it was a good day despite how you felt. May tomorrow be a much better one!

Alicia said...

I'm so sorry you're under the weather. Everything gets put on hold when mom is sick, I know!!!


Jen said...

Oh I hope you feel better soon. Sounds like you are where I would be if I was really down with something - it's a constant effort to stay on top of the mess on a good day. Hang in there!

ChupieandJ'smama said...

Ah, but we should all bring our dirt, unashamed to God. That's what he wants from us :)
I hope you all feel better. And if it helps, my recycling sits on my counter like that too (all the time!) and I'm not even under the weather. I'm just lazy;)

Foursons said...

Oh no! Feel better soon! And one clean room will make you feel so much better. After you clean reward yourself with laying on the couch and staring at the TV.

McCrakensx4 said...

Feel better soon friend...no fun being sick and even worse when you are sick and a single mom!! Take care!

Trisha said...

My house feels the same way because I have been running around, way busier than I would like. :)

Hope you are feeling better!

Mimi said...

This is so real, so true & waaaay too close to home for me. I feel lost from God & this post was really helpful to remember that I can go to Him no matter what.