I am waiting for an answer.
I want out of the unknowing. I'd claw my way out if I could.
The difficult immobility baffles me.
I'm waiting. Nothing's happening.
I'd make something happen if I could.
I struggle with my attitude and my longings. I struggle to pray.
Instead of enjoying today, I'm waiting in the mud of impatience.
I pray.
I wait.
I know I have today.
Today is what matters right now.
I tell myself to cherish what I have but I stomp through my day. I go through the motions, with my boots on, stomping through my impatient mire.
I'm stomping around in the impatience puddles, trying to enjoy today.
. . .
I was thinking about all of this today, when I remembered the pictures in this post. I looked them up as a visual reminder to me:
When you are impatient, it's like standing in a big mud puddle, the more you stomp around in it, the messier you get.
And, after a while, everything is a blurry mess.
Somehow, the pictures and the knowledge, is allowing me to pray more. The prayers are an answer to my prayers.
Matthew 11:28
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
Do you know what I'm going through? Are you messy with impatience, too? Pray. Even though you are struggling, pray.
11 comments:
I totally understand. Hang in there girl.
I struggle with being patient when waiting for information that pertains to my life. My husband may deploy again and I want to know when, where, and how long and I want to know RIGHT NOW! I find that it is easier to pray while scrubbing, so my house is immaculate when I am stressed. When the house gets messy my husband always suggests that he add a little stress to motivate me. :D
That is the truth! I get caught up in what needs to be done...what's coming up...and totally lose patience with the now and why can't things be done now and know the things I want to know now! I get tired and lost and don't take that time to pray for what I need and desire :) Thanks for the visual...so cute ;)
Wow...this was great!!! I hate it when I'm being impatient about things. Great reminder that we need to wait on the Lord!
I am the most impatient person and i like to know things...God works so much in the unknown...it is hard for me...but it strengthens my faith a bunch.
Hang in there.
I know exactly how you feel but I love that HE gives us rest. I remember that all things are bigger than I am...I have to say that sometimes that Mud Puddle can be fun...CAN'T IT??? ;)
I am NOT a patient person, so I feel for ya. But, you have to remind yourself that everything works out as He plans it. Just trust... everything will be fine. :) Hang in there!
Beautiful post!
I have been there. Many times. I do not have patience at all. God definitely has to work overtime to help me with that.
praying for you
Been thinking about you!
Patience is hard, so hard. I am patiently waiting for God to soften my husbands heart so that we may adopt. I am praying and trust that it will happen, but it's a hard wait.
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