We are solid. We never doubt our love, our faith, and our future.
But, we are in debt.
Our debt has created stress. We can't always, often, do everything we wish we could. We can't give to others when we feel led. Our hands are tied. We earn enough but we owe and that takes our excess.
It's painful. Debt. It's ugly.
If we could go back and only buy what we had money for in the bank, we would. If we were just moving to this town, we'd buy a much smaller house. Our lessons learned in hindsight from 10 years ago and from 3 years ago hurt. We chose the path we are on. It's painful to know that.
We long for less. Our longing is painful.
We are honest with ourselves. We are honest with our kids. We aren't always honest with those we know and love because debt is painfully embarrassing.
We have been praying and working to get out of debt. It isn't easy. Consequences are painful. I often feel like a child getting punished. But, I'm an adult and this problem has adult consequences.
This summer my prayers went from "I'll do anything to get out of debt" to "I will live anywhere to get out of debt."
We're facing transitions now.
We have a lot of hope.
Pray for us, our pain, and perseverance as we work to get out of debt.
This is the Part I of a 3 part series on Choices.