January 1, 2014
Josh is in the ICU after having two pulmonary embolisms. We do not know if he will make it. It has been a long, worrisome day. Seth flew to Colorado tonight to be with Josh and the family. It was the worst kind of New Year's Day. On the way to the airport, Seth and I discussed our fears and sadness. We verbally recognized how fragile life is.
I had already decided that 2014 needed to be different than 2013 with regards to my commitment to God and being faithful. This awareness of life and the possibility of death chills me to the bone.
I also want to make the most of every moment. Not only do I want to be real with others; I want to be more thankful. I lost sight of this in 2013.
Tonight I am thankful for:
- family. specifically, my in-love family. that is the family I gained when I married. My best friend calls her in-laws her in-loves. It's perfect.
- prayer and those who pray. It is a time for prayer- intercession. Prayer is comforting and hopeful.
*texts from my sister *a fire in the fireplace *a weeks' groceries bought *the love of a mother *a dishwasher *a phone call *a safe flight *chocolate *no commitments in the morning *doctors *hospitals *intuition and *Josh
Josh was in my kindergarten class. I married his younger brother. I know how brothers are. I am thankful he is my husband's older brother.