Thursday, May 03, 2007

Pressing On

There are days when I think to myself, “However did I make it last year?” Granted, right now I am experiencing pregnancy exhaustion. That might be the reason that I was reminding myself this morning of what I was able to do during Seth's deployment. Or, it might be that I was recently told that I have my hands full with the boys. From time to time, it just hits me, the deployment year was hard. I struggled through it. I had great times with my kids. I also had some tremendously hard days. I learned a lot about myself and the difference my attitude makes in the struggles of each day. I had friends say to me during the deployment, “I don’t know how you do it.” The truth is, I have no idea how I did it either. I just did the best I could. I wasn’t on top of everything but I managed the most important things. I loved the boys, loved and missed Seth, tried and refined my faith in a faithful God. I remember toward the end of the deployment I felt like I had failed in some ways. I was reminded that, “You haven’t failed if you haven’t given up.”

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I think days like those are reminders that when our husbands are gone, we are not alone, but God helps us through those days.
I remember back in January a couple days before John was supposed to go on his first long trip since Sarah was born, I had a very long day and was counting down the minutes until John came home that night. And then I became overwhelmed thinking how in the world am I going to take care of two kids by myself when he leaves. Strange thing though, after several weeks, when John came home, I realized while I was tired, the days weren't as bad or overwhelming as I thought it would be.
And that is when it struck me--God was there helping me and when my husband is TDY I find myself leaning on God more for strength, patience, etc then when I know I just have to make until 5pm (my husband is home).